The Brat // Leaving Home
There has not been a week in which I have shed so many tears in my life. Well at least non in my memory.
Conditions at home have been such that it became impossible to live there and when my mother said "Perhaps it would be better for all of us if you and Gee found somewhere for yourselves", I sat wondering what the hell to do. I guess I had decided a few days earlier it was time to leave home, but I didn't want to let go of my little sister, my room, my garden, my kitty or the life I had developed.
Unfortunately I couldn't survive any longer and had been feeling the grips of depression, and when I feel depression it's time to make urgent changes, because I can quite quickly become a chunk of good-for-nothing depressed meat. Bound to the indoors and hiding from the public.
So I left.
Now I am around the corner about 1km away. Not so far from my sister or life and even my mother once this whole situation dies down a little. I didn't want to leave. I didn't know what else to do.
Stay at home and wait for the next journey to hells gates to begin?
Leave everything behind?
Just so you know mum- I regret this all having had to happen, but I tried, and I tried hard.
And to my darling little sister I'm sorry. You can't imagine the tears I have shed except to say they would be comparible to the ones you have and will shed. I never wanted to leave you. Never. I love you too much and am dripping tears all over the keyboard as is. You know I looked for every alternative; there just wasn't one too fit our situation. I miss you already :(
It's time for this post to end, and it's time for me to pray: Please look after my sister and my family through the potential problems we are sure to face in the future. I didn't want to cause more trouble but I thought it through and don't know what else to do. Please god, help me here.
Conditions at home have been such that it became impossible to live there and when my mother said "Perhaps it would be better for all of us if you and Gee found somewhere for yourselves", I sat wondering what the hell to do. I guess I had decided a few days earlier it was time to leave home, but I didn't want to let go of my little sister, my room, my garden, my kitty or the life I had developed.
Unfortunately I couldn't survive any longer and had been feeling the grips of depression, and when I feel depression it's time to make urgent changes, because I can quite quickly become a chunk of good-for-nothing depressed meat. Bound to the indoors and hiding from the public.
So I left.
Now I am around the corner about 1km away. Not so far from my sister or life and even my mother once this whole situation dies down a little. I didn't want to leave. I didn't know what else to do.
Stay at home and wait for the next journey to hells gates to begin?
Leave everything behind?
Just so you know mum- I regret this all having had to happen, but I tried, and I tried hard.
And to my darling little sister I'm sorry. You can't imagine the tears I have shed except to say they would be comparible to the ones you have and will shed. I never wanted to leave you. Never. I love you too much and am dripping tears all over the keyboard as is. You know I looked for every alternative; there just wasn't one too fit our situation. I miss you already :(
It's time for this post to end, and it's time for me to pray: Please look after my sister and my family through the potential problems we are sure to face in the future. I didn't want to cause more trouble but I thought it through and don't know what else to do. Please god, help me here.
posted by olivebranch at 11:24 PM
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